Sick Leave

Have been feeling quite low with work situation plus had arthritic pain in my left hand which is so frustrating. Still, a bit of period pain & nausea soon put that in perspective as did the disastrous meeting I had yesterday with AM (Area "Manager") & HR.
The second instalment of the interrogation was worse than the last and I felt as though AM was deliberately trying to wind me up. He can be so obnoxious at times, a good hard slap wouldn't have gone amiss (obviously I would never do this as I don't advocate violence as a rule, but in my head, where no-one gets hurt, he has received more than a few slaps).
He made me so angry and then accused me of having aggressive body language - doh! What kind of brain-dead fool would I be if I just sat there taking his accusations of foul play, collusion against a poor defenceless manager and unjustified anger towards my employers, with a smile on my face! Or perhaps he wanted me to hang my sorry little head in shame and say, "Yes, you are right, Your Worshipfulness, you have tried so hard and all I have done is fail you and your organisation. I am deeply ashamed and beg forgiveness promising to do all I can to follow your guidance regardless of my own opinions & feelings" In his dreams!
Sometimes, I think he may actually be insane as he seems to really think that he has done all he can to support the team and that we are the ones who have made things difficult. Either that or his agenda is to drive us all insane until we leave and then he can add another closed project to his rapidly increasing list.
Needless to say, I was very upset by the end of the meeting and had to struggle to hold back frustrated, angry tears as HR asked if there was anything further I wanted to say. I simply stated that anything I said would be futile. They exchanged glances and the meeting was over.
Agh! I can't wait to leave this stupid disorganised society! I feel too stressed, angry & nauseous to go in today. I can't believe I have to put up with this crap.

Things to do:
1) See doctor re constant nausea
2) Join the union in-case the "charity" try to sack me for having my own opinions
3) See if can get some counselling to help deal with all this rubbish
4) Breathe

.......and so on and so on